Sunday, November 16, 2014

Today I Say Goodbye

It's been almost 2 months to the day that we lost you. I still have trouble realizing you are gone. It's weird to think that you aren't at home right now getting ready for one of your functions and enjoying what you loved best. I have to really think about that fact that you aren't there doing these things.

I try not to regret things in life but I regret not spending time with you more. I can say I'm glad that the last couple of years we were able to keep in touch via email. I'll keep those forever and keep my memory of you forever.

You did so much that I was not aware of and you were so special to so many. More than I could have imagined. You were a pillar in your community and your church, which was your world. You did so much for so many. Hearing all the loving and caring words as we laid you to rest was amazing. It was inspiring and I'm glad I got to call you grandmother and that you are a part of me. You'll always be a part of me and my family. Forever you will be missed.

Though I may regret the time we didn't spend together I will treasure the time we did have. I will treasure my memories and make you proud of the woman I've become and the woman I will be. You'll always be in my thoughts and in my heart. I love you grandmother....

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Adventures In Being a Step Parent (1)

I had my first real moment of step parenting 101 over the weekend. I didn’t really know what to do. Up to this point, over the last couple of years since the girls have been in my life I haven’t really had to deal with any discipline or anything like that. Bill handles it if needed. And honestly at the moment we don’t have them often enough yet to where any major issues arise. It’s only ever little things. For the most part they are really well behaved kids. They’re kids, so they still whine and pout and all that, but it’s usually nothing and only lasts for a few minutes at most. Except…for this past weekend.

The youngest, Little Miss S, has some major issues with waking up, especially in the car. If she wakes on her own, she usually ok, but if you have to wake her up It’s almost guaranteed that she’s going to whine and even cry a little. Apparently she’s been like this since she was a baby. She’s 6 now. Which ok, is fine, she’ll hopefully grow out of it.

So to the point, this weekend, was the worst I’ve ever seen her. I have no words for whatever it was she was doing. It started in the movie theatre. We took the kids to see Big Hero 6, which by the way is an awesome movie. I’d recommend seeing it if you have kids or not. I loved it. Little miss S fell asleep ¾ of the way through the movie. Her sister decided to wake her up after the movie was over while we waited to see if anything was going to be shown after the credits. So of course, she was cranky and sitting there with her pouty face. We were able to get her to the car…eventually…she walked pretty dang slowly because she was pouting. Once we got her in the car she refused to get up out of her booster to move it over so she could get the seat belt out from under it. After a few minutes of that we were tired of sitting there so I had to physically pick her up off the booster to move it because she wouldn’t do it her self. When we got home she was in tears and wouldn’t get out of the car. Refusing to bend her elbow to get her arm out from under the seat belt. Acting like she didn’t know how, when it was literally only her fingers touching the seat belt. After that she decided she didn’t know how to get out of her booster and moved only her torso in a jerking zombie like motion, which of course was doing nothing. All of this while continuing to whine and cry. At one point I told her I’d go inside and get a bottle ready for her. Maybe not the best thing to say but I was just shocked at how she was acting. I still have no words for what she was doing.

Bill and I sat outside the car while she continued her little fit and he was telling her to get out etc. And I didn’t know what to do. I made the mistake, apparently, of telling him what to do instead of suggesting it, which he didn’t like and responded with a kind of jerky comment.

I told him to just leave her there and let’s walk in the garage. Mind you, the car was in the driveway and we could see her from the garage. But that didn’t happen. I walked away after about 5 minutes of this and let him deal with it. Eventually they came in the garage and sat down on couch out there and after an hour she was fine.

It’s hard to step in with something like that. I know this is a minor thing compared to what we have in store for us as they grow older and the problems we will probably face with teenagers, but I realized that Bill and I are going to have to figure this out. I’m going to have to figure out how I fit into this. What my role is as that step parent. At this point, I feel, they aren’t my kids so I don’t have the right to take the lead but I do have a say and I will and should be involved. Of course things will change and get easier when we can move closer to them and have them on a more frequent basis, but for now I’m trying to figure this all out. I think they still have to get used to me in a way. At their house it’s different, they live with their mom and her boyfriend so he sees them all the time so I’m sure for him it’s different. But for me, am I just dad’s girlfriend? I’m not and we’re going to grow and learn from all these experiences together.

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Mom's Birthday

This is a little usual...we happily celebrated my mother's birthday this month. I won't say how old she is lol. Her birthday is March 8, so we decided we'd have the family come over and just have a good time.
We had the family and some of my mom's friends came over. It was also my brother's friends birthday. Some of my brother's friends were there too. They are always over at the house so it was business as usual.
Of course we had beer pong and shots going. I didn't personally partake heavily. Just a few games of beer pong.
And of course, there was tons of food. Can't have it any other way. We also had the mexican horshoes going. It's not a get together if we don't have those!
I do have to brag a bit about the cupcakes we made. I got the idea online and I think they turned out really cool. It was definitely harder than the tutorial looked! But it was fun, my sister and I made them. Here's where I got the idea for the cupcakes. AND i never make my cupcakes from scratch...ask anyone, I love my Betty Crocker boxed cupcakes. I know some people don't, but I do. Maybe one day I'll make them from scratch....Here's some pictures of the night

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Weight Loss Contest At An End

Well our weight loss contest is over. AND I lost. The skinny guy one! He “supposedly” lost 17lbs! I’m just a sore loser! LOL! No, I’m not really! It was all fair! I was there for 2 of his weigh ins… I just can’t believe he lost 17 pounds! Which is great for him! We all gave him a hard time the last couple of days! All in good fun of course. Mostly everyone did great. A couple girls lost around 20lbs each, which is great too!…I only lost 8.

I’m mad at myself for not sticking to it. I started off doing really well, then the holidays hit, and I still did ok, but it wasn’t exercising like I should’ve and I was definitely not watching what I ate as much as I should have. It’s all about lifestyle change and not necessarily dieting. I’m still working on getting that down! I will say that I’ve been pretty good about incorporating exercise into my daily routine. At work I’m definitely doing more walking, more often than not, than I have in the past, just from changing positions and doing new things. But I’ve added walking to my after work routine. I’m trying to knock out mon-fri. I’ve decided I’m not the running/jogging type, just no. But walking, I like walking! I have to say that I found a great app to keep track of my distance and speed and I love it, especially cause it now syncs with my other app that I use to keep track of calories and stuff. The walking/running app is MapMyRun…they have all kinds of apps related to it that do the same thing, just different names, by the same company. BUT I love that it syncs with MyFitnessPal so I don’t have to try and log those calories burned into the other app. I highly recommend both apps!

If we do another contest, I hope to do better! It’s definitely fun doing it this way, friendly competition and hazing. It’s pretty cool how something like this can motivate you. ---The cash prize helped a little too ;) --- here’s to a healthier me and fun with co-workers!

Saturday, January 18, 2014

New Year's Eve 2013

Ok, so I know this is a bit late.....that's ok though. What a blast we had! Kept it safe for most of us, ok me,  because I didn't have to drive home. We had everyone over at my parent's house! Definitely a fun family get together!

My mother was definitely trying and succeeding in getting people drunk off shots. We did chocolate cake shots and what I like to call fucker pucker sucker ducker shots. It's a made up name. I couldn't recall the actual name of the shot only that it had the word fucker and possibly sucker. I didn't feel like looking that name back up! If you've ever had a chocolate cake shot you know it's a bit strange. It definitely taste like chocolate cake, but to me, it's like a crappy chocolate cake from the grocery store, but not bad. We had plenty of those going around.

Beer pong galore as well. I'd like to say Bill and I started out winning pretty good but then our luck ran out and we had new champions. Beer pong is always fun except for the drinking part. The beer gets pretty gross tasting fast. Especially when you play with Natty Ice or Coors Light like we did.

You'd think we were a bunch of drunks. We are not. Seriously. That's one of the few times we all get together and drink like that. I myself have sworn off hard alcohol after that night, lol. Except for an occasional margarita!

I really do treasure these nights. I love getting together with my family and just having fun. Lots of fun and tons of food. You can't beat it!