Thursday, December 27, 2012

Christmas come and gone

Christmas has come and gone. I'm happy because I can finally stop crocheting. I can give my fingers/hands/arms a break. It was worth it though, giving my family members a present that was practical and something that had a little more meaning to it since I made it. AND I was finally able to give Bill his present! Which was nerve racking. I gave him an Xbox and he's been wanting one for a while. I had to keep convincing him to wait to buy one. He would mention it when he saw one for a good price and I had to keep telling, him no, no, just wait. Thankfully he did and I was able to surprise him with it.

This Christmas my Uncle and his wife on my dad's side, who we don't really see, were able to come up and spend a day with the family, along with Martha, a woman who lives with my grandmother, who i absolutely adore! Martha is great! My grandmother and her sister also came up, and have been staying with us this week, they will go home tomorrow. It's been good to see her and see her doing so well after her hospital stay and being sick. It's also brought us all together with having dinners at my other Aunt's home. Playing games like we do at all the holidays. It's been great.

Now I'm going to enjoy the rest of my time off from work, I'll go back next Wednesday :/

Friday, December 14, 2012

another down...a couple to go

I finally finished this semester, took my last final last night. This semester has been a long one. I haven’t received my final grades yet, but I know I did great in 3 of the 4 classes. The 4 th I’m just hoping to pass. I don’t know what it was about this class that no one seemed to do well. I say that, not trying to shift the blame for my poor performance, which I’m mad and disappointed in myself for, but I wasn’t the only one suffering this professor. At first, I’ll admit, I blamed it on the fact that I missed more classes than I should have, which was stupid on my part; but a couple of weeks ago after a quiz or take home assignment, she had our grades printed and listed on a sheet of paper. (the grades were by student ID so you couldn’t tell who was getting what, but all the grades were there) I kid you not when I say all but I believe 2 people in the class were getting a low C, high D or below. Although a lot of people seemed to have stopped coming to class and didn’t drop the class, out of the 15 ish people still left, only 2 were getting decent grades. I decided at that point, it wasn’t just me and my early slacking in the semester. Which in part was because I didn’t feel I was learning anything from this professor. I wasn’t alone because the last few weeks the other classmates have been saying the same thing. Although this isn’t an excuse for my poor performance, I feel that it said professor’s horrible teaching style, had a lot to do with it. I’m just hoping that I did well enough on the final to pass the class. That said, I’m glad the semester is over. I get one month off, woohoo!! Then back at it again.

In the meantime, I’ve been busy, busy, crocheting! It’s something my grandma taught her granddaughters to do. We never really did much with it, and I never really learned a lot of stitches or how to make too much, but in the recent months I’ve been working on it. I decided to make things, mostly beanies, for my family for Christmas. (mostly cause it’s inexpensive and I’m broke hehe) But I think they’ll like them. Hopefully. I’ve been teaching myself to do a lot of that, which I’m enjoying. I even taught Bill, and he’s making his girls beanies for Christmas. It’s the cutes thing. I could sit there forever watching him do it. Watching him concentrate, it’s the too great! He’s getting better every day! hehe So now that I have no school for a little bit, I will be crocheting like a mad woman getting this stuff done. I have more to do now that I have my dad’s family coming up for Christmas, hopefully I can get it all done in time!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


Thanksgiving was great! I’m glad it’s over though! I love spending time with my family and eating the great food, but it’s nice not to worry about what I need to get at the store and what needs to be made when etc. Plus I’ve eaten like crap for the last week! Haha! I’ve been trying to cut back on soda consumption and for the last week I feel like that’s all I’ve been drinking!

But anyway, it was a success! Bill and I made pies on Wed. night and were up until 2 in the morning! partly because we had to work and didn’t get started til about 5 or 6 in evening! BUT the pies were great and loved by all! I was nervous about making the apple pie, but it turned out great and everyone ate it! We had everything you would imagine at a dinner: two turkeys, mashed potatoes, green bean casserole (yum!), sweet potatoes, baked mac n cheese, stuffing and rolls…I’m probably forgetting something, but you get the idea! Lots of food! Unfortunately I forgot to take pictures of any of it! by the time I thought about it, it was too late! Oh well! I did get some pictures of some of us thanks to my niece, she wanted to take pictures. I’ll have to go through them and post those later!

I must tell you, if ever you see a recipe for “Pumpkin Bourbon Mousse” delete it, run away screaming, pretend you never saw it!! I saw this recipe online, it looked great based on the picture, I figured it was like eggnog for thanksgiving. I was sadly mistaken. If you enjoy eating an entire pumpkin by itself all at once then feel free to make this drink. That’s the best explanation I have, shoving an entire pumpkin pie in your mouth all at once. Again, if that’s something you would enjoy, this drink is for you. It’s not really even a drink; it’s like a cup of warm mushed up pie. We even tried chilling it and adding more rum (we used rum instead of bourbon) no bueno. Still just gross. Bill was the only one that drank his, and probably because he was just being nice not wanting to hurt my feelings. Even though I did tell him it wouldn’t, because even I couldn’t stomach it. We ended up throwing the whole thing down the drain which then smelt like the rum the rest of the evening, which isn’t so bad. I will never look at pumpkin the same; the sight of anything made of pumpkin will forever be nauseating after this.

On a good note, we did get to play our favorite family get together car game! Only 4 of us played, this year everyone was beat. I was too, but playing cards gave me a bit of a second wind and being the one in the lead when we decided to stop was nice too :P

Next we will feast again at Christmas! I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Thanksgiving Week

Thanksgiving is definitely one of my favorite holidays. Not only is it a time when our family gets together but over the last few years I’ve found that I really enjoy baking and cooking for this holiday and Christmas too. I like this opportunity to try and make new desserts and appetizers. Even if it’s not something I would eat, I like making it for everyone else to eat. HA!

The last few years, desserts have consisted of cookies, cakes and pies. We also like to make appetizers every year. I know! I know! It sounds crazy!! With all the food consumed that day, why on earth would we make appetizers??!! I don’t even remember why I started doing it, but it was a few years ago that I got a wild hair up my ass and decided to make a menu for thanksgiving and decided I wanted to bake and cook and make all kinds of things. So I found a few things to try out and one of those things was stuffed mushrooms and now every year my mother forces me to make them. Ok, so she doesn’t hold me over a fire or threaten to push me off a cliff to my death, but I do it because I know she loves them. Besides, she would keep asking me if I said no until I finally gave in, so why not just make them! So now, appetizers are a part of our Thanksgiving tradition. We make them first thing in the morning and we start eating from there! This of course is after eating breakfast. Which is another tradition, my father makes eggs, pancakes, bacon and biscuits ever year on Thanksgiving and Christmas morning. Again, more food on the day where we stuff ourselves like a fat kid in a candy store! You know, I guess we gotta make it like this the whole day!

Back to why I love this holiday! It really is the food! I am that fat kid in the candy store on Thanksgiving! I love the food (I love food in general), but more so on this day. Now for someone who really doesn’t eat a whole lot of sweets, I really do love making them! I’m actually really picky when it comes to cakes and that kind of thing. I only really eat chocolate chip cookies and chocolate cake with chocolate frosting! Haha! BUT again, I love to make all kinds of cookies that I won’t eat and force everyone else too! This year I’ll be doing a good amount of baking. I’ll be making cookies and muffins and pies. I had a thought this morning to make cake balls but Bill said it would probably be too much since I’m already baking so much and we have a lot to make on Thanksgiving day! He’s right! Wednesday night will be extremely busy with baking. Like most years I’ll probably stay up past midnight finishing everything and wake up sore with my feet aching! It’s ok! It’s all for the good of baking and forcing people to eat my food! Haha! Ok I’ll finally tell you what I’m baking: chocolate chip cookies, raisin chocolate chip cookies & snicker doodles (maybe). Pumpkin chocolate chip muffins. Apple & fresh pumpkin pie, no canned stuff this year. Everything of course made by me, nothing boxed or in a pouch…Bill will be helping with the pumpkin pie because he was the one who wanted it fresh and not canned, so it’ll be his job to carve the pumpkin out; all the messy stuff is on him!

I called this Thanksgiving week because I’ve been thinking about it for weeks and will continue to think about it all week because of all the stuff I have to do. We also have to make several store trips this week. Starting today we have to pick up a few things and then will go back on Wed. It’s a little annoying to have to make so many trips but we have to get the fresh stuff as last minute as possible. But here’s what our thanksgiving will include: Yams/sweet potatoes, Turkey of course, mashed potatoes, Baked Mac N Cheese, green bean casserole (my favorite), cranberry, fresh stuffing, gravy and rolls (my other favorite). Plus all of the desserts and appetizers, which will be stuffed mushrooms and little smokies.

Ok, almost done…the other part of thanksgiving is family of course. This is one of the few times per year where we get together and hang out as a family. Even if it’s not everyone, (aunts, uncles etc), at least it’s my immediate family and that’s good enough for me, plus there is always another guest or two. Whoever it may be, we always, always, get together and play Nerts. Not sure on the spelling of that, but it’s a card game, kind of like solitaire but with lots of people playing at once and everyone has their own deck of cards. It’s a game we’ve played for years, it’s the one thing we do at Thanksgiving and Christmas that is always a lot of fun!

Lastly I’m super excited that this year Bill will be spending Thanksgiving with my family. The previous year he spent with his family, so this year he’ll be with me and I’m excited about that! I’m excited to spend the holiday with him and have him become and even bigger part of our family and enjoy everything that we do around the holidays.

I’ll be taking lots and lots of pictures and hope other people do to so I can see how other people celebrate the holiday!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

The Sopranos

Spoilers! *Said in the voice of River Song* Dr. Who

Bill and I just finished watching the series the other day! I can't tell you how mad I was. Ok, so I wasn't that mad, but it was definitely irritating. For the longest time, before I even started watching the series, I had heard that everyone was so dissapointed by the ending. I now know why! So infuriating! Total cliff hanger! 10 seasons and they ended it like that! GAH!

Other than the ending, what a great show! So many, holy crap moments I can't believe they did that. I really started to fall in love with the characters and the Soprano family, other than Tony's infidelity issues. A few deaths that I was a little irritated by. I would've sworn Joss Whedon was involved! Always killing of your favorite characters, case in point, just watch Firefly series and then the movie Serenity that was made from it.

I can't believe it took me this long to watch this show! I remember my parents watching it when it came out. They watched it like clockwork and I never really thought anything of it until Bill brought it up and said we should watch it. I'm really glad I did. I definitely recommend it to anyone who hasn't seen it! Amazing cast and the mafia is always an interesting subject.

Next on the series watch is finishing Fringe and we also started watching Arrested Development. He's seen Arrested Development and turned me onto it and it's great, so funny. These are just among the many series' I'm looking forward to seeing. It seems a little sad that I want to just sit in front of the TV and watch shows. But that's not really it, we'll take a couple hours out of a whole weekend and watch our seasons. Although I guess i shouldn't say I don't sit in front of the TV all day on the weekends or whenever cause we really do do that when we start playing our video games together! lol AH.. technology!

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Long While

It’s been too long. I haven’t been able to get on the computer other than to work on a project or homework in I don’t know how long. I haven’t had a chance to check in with people and see what’s going on in their lives and read all the bloggidy goodness that my friends have. Thank goodness for smart phones...They keep me up to date! What would we do without them….probably be more productive! HA!

This will be the first week in the last couple months that I don’t really have anything going on, other than school; which of course, always seems to be going on. Can’t quite get away from that yet! I’ll be happy when I do.

I’ve been a part of something special so I can’t complain…it just takes a lot of your time away, but again, not complaining…to much;) As I’ve mentioned before, I was helping coach a girl’s softball team. Great group of girls, I won’t ever forget them. BUT, it was a lot of work and I wasn’t involved full time because I have school, but I was there for 90% of it. I did enjoy it though.

What’s taken up my time lately is making their gifts. Their season ended at the end of October and because of scheduling conflicts with all the girls we are having a team party next weekend, the 17 th . Well, it’s normal for the manager/coaches to throw a party for the girls and celebrate the season and their accomplishments and get them little trophies or something along those lines as a little gift. So I dumbly decided that I would make them photo books for their gifts on Shutterfly….I knew it would be time consuming because I had made one not too long ago for myself/family because I had an offer for a free book. This took me FOREVER to make! I spent hours doing this one book. AND NOW HERE I WAS HAVING TO MAKE 12 OF THEM!!! It took me about a week maybe a little longer, working on them a couple hours a night, sometimes longer, but I finally finished them! So now I can breathe! Haha! I think they’ll like them though…at least they better…I put too much time in them for them not too! hehe only kidding…but really they better like them! ;)

Now that the season is over I feel like I have my time back, again not complaining. I can get back to focusing on school which I’ll admit has been a struggle for me this semester. Not the work, just the focusing part, but the semester is almost over and I just need to buckle down and plow through it.

Now onto the next thing….making Christmas gifts! AND who can forget Thanksgiving and all the delicious food! Looking forward to some green bean casserole!

Sunday, October 14, 2012

This direction...That direction....No direction

As I read the blog of the Lovely Andi-Roo, it made me think….I have no direction for myself as far as this blog is concerned. And then I that a big deal? Do I need a direction? My answer was NO! No I don’t! The direction is my life! Hence the name….other than the fact I couldn’t think of a name for the blog….maybe that’s too broad, but I don’t really care…but it did get me thinking….and again, ultimately I don’t really care if my blog is random and isn’t specific to say cooking, or arts and crafts or politics or whatever. It’s me and I'm happy with that. I’m not writing this for anyone else really but me anyway so why do I care if I’m focusing on one thing or another!

But don’t get me wrong, it’s great advice for someone who is a writer, which I am not!! I was reading her blog and she mentioned something she read from another persons blog about writing etc...I believe this person was a writer.

I love blogs that do that kind of thing, that are specifically for craft or cooking, but that's just not me. I’m just not a writer in any which way, no sir! AND I'm just not that focused on one thing or another.....I just blab, this is my blab page. I’ll put the happenings of my life and post pictures and recipes and who knows what else! That’s what you’re going to get. If you don't like it....oh well, you don't have to read it!!

One thing I would like to do is figure out a better design for this blog. Which at first I was thinking trying out other blog hosting sites, is that what they are???..i.e. ...I tried out wordpress and didn't like it! First off I wasn't about to pay for it! lol AND they didn't have what i was looking for, so here I am!…ideally I’d like to have my own website that I could set my blog up on. I’ve seen others do that and I really like it...For now, this will do!

We’ll see where this takes me….Where life takes me....Always a work in progress!

Friday, October 5, 2012


Friday…you’ve come at last! What a long week and for no particular reason. It just seemed to drag on and on, and on. BUT it’s finally Friday! Woohoo! I wish I could say my weekend was filled with absolutely nothing, meaning lounging around and playing video games all day with Bill! Sadly for me, that will not be the case. NOT that it will be filled with bad things or crazy things. AND I should add it’s all by choice…I chose to do the things I’m going to do, so I really shouldn’t complain, but I like to anyway. HA! Well I’m not really complaining either….right?!

At least tonight will be relaxed and I’ll be doing something I really enjoy, which of course is spending time with Bill. His birthday was yesterday, which he also happens to share with his oldest daughter, who turned 6, (yes, he has 2 kids 6 & 4) so he spent their birthday with her and so we weren’t able to do anything together, so that’s why we are going out tonight the two of us! Nothing beats good food and I’m sure a beer or two to make for a relaxing night!

THEN Saturday I’ll be playing softball most of the day. Tournament. Not complaining, I’m just not looking forward to the sore feet on Sunday. BECAUSE I went to the doctor on Monday and found I have Plantar Fasciitis….which nothing can really be done about, so hopefully my new shoe inserts will help for tomorrow!!...but anyway, the tournament is good because it’s for a cause, charity tournament. It’s fundraising, and I hate to say it, but I can’t recall what we are fundraising for. I know it’s for a specific kid that my friend knows, who is hosting the tournament. I know… it’s terrible that I can’t say what the cause is for!! BUT that’s why I’m playing!

AND Sunday is coaching…I guess I haven’t mentioned that I’ve been coaching….Girls Softball 12u (12 & under)….this is not something I ever saw myself doing. But here I am. I’m really there just helping, as my school schedule doesn’t allow me to be there on their main practice days, so I say I’m just helping. PLUS, it’s not like I have a daughter on the team…it’s a friend of ours, the same one throwing the tournament, her daughter plays on the team and she asked my sister and I to help, so that’s what we are doing. They play every Sunday, through the end of October. So that’s where I’ll be on Sunday.

Geez! All that to describe a few days. Hope I wasn’t rambling too much…but ….“that’s my prerogative”

And now you all have that song in your head like me! enjoy!

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

That Bitch

This past Friday I went to visit my grandmother. It’s been a couple of weeks since her surgery. I’ve heard a lot of positive things from everyone on how she’s doing, but I wanted to go and visit her myself and let her know that I’m worried about her and love her.

Bill was so great, he drove all the way down there with me. This is San Diego mind you, and from where we live, it’s usually about a three hour drive. I was really glad that he did that and that he sat there with my grandmother and me at the hospital. We were only there for about two and a half hours, but I know that meant a lot to my grandmother. AND thankfully, no one else was there, so it was just the three of us, not including her roommate on the other side of the curtain. AND ok, yes, the cousin showed up, but thankfully only for about 5 minutes. Full of fake pleasantries, and “oh, I’m so happy to see you!” , but again, thankfully only for 5 minutes.

I was elated to see how much better she looked from the last time I saw her. Of course that was right after a major surgery that took twice as long as it should have. Thankfully she made it through and that’s all that mattered. She almost looked back to normal. Almost. I’m so amazed at what a strong woman she is, to be bouncing back so quickly. She is still a little weak but, oh I can’t even tell you how much better she’s doing. Of course we aren’t anywhere near the end for her, she’s got a long road of recovery ahead. But she’s moving along and I’m so happy!

I’m going to make sure I go back down and visit in about a month. I’d like to give her time to get out of the hospital and get settled at home and get her routine going with all the things she’ll need. I told her she has to slow down. She’s a very active woman in her church. Always going to conferences and trying to help other people. Now she just needs to focus on herself and healing herself. My strong lovely little grandmother, I love you dearly!

Grandma Rose & Ariana last Christmas

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Happy Happenings

It’s always great to see good things happening to the people you love and care about.

Just this past weekend I was able to celebrate some wonderful happenings.

First we were able to celebrate friends of ours buying their first house! This is exciting cause they are both young and what an awesome accomplishment to be able to do that at a young age and they are so happy about it. I’m so happy for them because they are such a wonderful couple and you can really tell that they love each other. It’s great to see people so happy and see how excited they are to make this space their own and begin this next chapter in their lives! I’m so proud of them!

If that wasn’t enough excitement, we found out that my cousin proposed to his girlfriend during their weekend away for his birthday! No one knew except his mother and my grandmother. It’s amazing that my grandmother was able to keep it a secret! Over the weekend we all got together for dinner to celebrate the engagement and my cousin’s birthday. As always it was a great time, good food and lots of laughs.

He picked a good person to share his life with, she’s a wonderful woman and I’m glad she’ll officially be part of the family!

So…here comes another wedding! And she wants to do it soon! We may see them married at the beginning of next year!

“Everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it.” – Andy Rooney

I find this appropriate because as my friends and family start the next chapter in their lives they will continue to grow with each other and be happy.

May we all continue to grow and be happy!

Saturday, September 22, 2012

sept 21st

I always thought that I might not be right for love, that it just wasn’t in the cards. That I’d never get married and never had kids. And though, I thought I’d found it before, it was only to be hurt and tossed aside. Further discouraging me. Of course, I would tell myself not to think this way, I’m young I’ve got plenty of time, I don’t need to worry about this, it will come. The right man will come along.

Two years ago I met the most wonderful man. What started off as a simple conversation quickly became much more. I’ll never forget that first conversation. I wasn’t even really paying attention to him. I was thinking, why is this guy talking to me? He never says anything, he’s the guy who wears the two lanyards around his neck with his two favorite teams, the weird guy who asks me if I want anything everyday when he goes off to lunch. The next thing I know, I’m falling for this guy. Everything is so easy, it’s like we’ve been doing this for years. I’d say he had me at hello, but it took a little longer than that, though not much!

Quick story, I’ll never forget the first time he said he loved me. We were walking down the hall at work and talking like we do every morning on my break. He said something that I didn’t catch and with wide eyes clapped his hand over his mouth. He wouldn’t tell me what he said even after trying to guess. He told me later that he said he loved me. I’ll never forget that.

This man of mine, he’s caring and loving and funny and smart and so much more. He’s everything I’ve wanted and needed. He’s made me a better person. I can’t imagine life without him.

Time has gone by so fast that I can’t believe it’s already been two years and at the same time I can’t believe it’s only been two years. I can’t wait to see where our life takes us as long as we are with each other. We have some obstacles ahead of us that I know we’ll get through together. I can’t imagine being with a better guy, because there isn’t one.

I love you and will always love you with all that I have. You are my sun and stars, you are my world Bill. I love you!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Grandma Rose:(

My grandmother has been in the hospital for just over a week. It's bad enough that my Uncle didnt tell my dad right away but I cant even tell you how upset I am tonight.
I came down yesterday with my San Diego, where my grandmother lives and is in the hospital, to see her and my mother and I drove back early this morning to see her again and get more information on what the situation was. When we got here we had just missed the doctor by ten minutes..... Just so you know, we were driving in from 3 hours we were told that with what is wrong with her she decided to have surgery. So after being here all day, the surgery was moved back from the afternoon to the evening. I made the decision to take another day off work....I took today off and made the decision to fake tomorrow off as well so that I could see my grandmother before she want into surgery and make sure she made it through just in case.
Well she went in not that long ago. BUT and here it is...first let me tell you this is my dads mom...and so he only sibling, his brother is here with his wife and their cousin is here. Whom I may hate for the rest of my life. Not because she has to be in charges of everything and seems to be faking the niceness since I haven't seen her since I was a wee child and frankly dont remember her at none of that is why.
As they come in to take my grandmother downstairs I kind of just get out of the way so they can get her into the new bed and get her moved, I was able to say a quick "we are followyoh down there and we'll see you before you go in" before they took her in.
So we get down to the surgery waiting area and they tell us only two family obviously her two sons...but no the cousin cant control herself. .."im just gunna go see where they are taking her, i'll be back." And guess what she doesn't come back. So at that point whatever, its F-ing annoying but whatever. After that were are waiting a long time waiting for the chance to see her before she goes in cause they told us that two family members could come back and see her once she's ready to go before they start. So eventually my dad comes back and no cousin, stays back there, and mind you she's been there for a while, this whole time. So ky father comes back and picks up my mother and his sister-in-law. Then my parents walk back, now this was very quick. So they tell me that as soon as they got there they whisker her away into surgery. Then this bitch comes walking back with my uncle and aunt. And I was ok on the outside for a second and I walked away to call Bill to tell him this bitch may taken my last chance to see my grandmother alive away from. Then I just lost it and broke down. How dare you stay back there knowing there are other people that need to see her, how dare you! AND then not even apologize to me the next time you see me. I dont think the bitch feels the least bit sorry.
Now I started writing while waiting for her ti get out of surgery of course not knowing if I would get to see mt grandmother alive again because of course anything could happen during a major surgery and especially how frail she was. Im finishing this with the good news that she has made it out of surgery so far but is no where near the end of the rainbow and the next few days will be very critical.
I can't tell you how pissed I still am, there is still a chance that she could go, of course I'm not thinking about that. I will hate this woman for the rest of my life if something happens. My jaw is going to be sore and now I know why my shoulders are tight, because as I type this im getting mad all over again and tensing up and clenching my jaw. We have been in the waiting room going on 6 hours and I can't even look at her. I feel sick to my stomach...although I will admit that could be the 2.5 five hour energies i've had in the last almost 24 hours that I have been far I think its 22 hours ...
I will now focus on the positive that it wasn't cancer and she's made it this far and she's a fighter, she will make it. Otherwise I might have to cut this bitch!

Monday, September 10, 2012

Death and Dying

Now, I know this isn’t the best way to come back this world of blogging after having some time pass since I’ve last been here. But I couldn’t help myself from thinking about this. It started sometime this weekend. I must’ve been bored or who knows what. I have no idea where it came from, but I started thinking about dying. And of course when I arrive at work it pops back in my head and I had to say to myself, why am I thinking about this?

Again, where this came from, I have no idea. But it’s a little depressing to think that after we die, that’s it. We are gone. This world and this universe goes on. And it has obviously done that for millions of years and it will continue to do so. But us? Nope we are just gone. We have this little spec of life on the timeline of the Earth and the universe and that’s it. Where do we go? Do we go anywhere? What happens to us? I’m not a religious person nor do I believe in religion or that we go to heaven or hell….I think it’s a comforting thought, to believe that when we die we go to heaven and are able to see our loved ones etc. etc. (if we make to heaven). I think it’s something we humans have used for comfort for as long as we’ve been around.

On the other side of that, if that doesn’t exist, then what happens to us? I think back on an episode of Dr. Who, a sad episode for me, but any who ;), one of the characters dies and says, she was right or something like that (referring to either a previous episode or something that happened earlier in that episode), that when you die it’s black, it’s all black. You’re in the world of darkness essentially is how I took it. And that’s my point I guess. Is that what happens to us? Or nothing?

I guess it’s a hard concept to grasp. It’s hard to wrap my head around it. We are here living and breathing and going through life. and to have death be just pure nothing….that’s a little hard to grasp and hard to imagine. Especially when you think of the ones you love that are still here and the ones you’ve lost. I love living and I love being, so what does that mean when I die?

These are the pleasant thoughts I’ve had in my head over the weekend! HA!

PS: it’s one of those things that I could just ponder over for hours and think about I guess. It’s kind of like the universe. Bill and I will talk about it sometimes, it’s another one of those things that is hard to grasp. I ask the question, we have our galaxy and beyond that is other galaxies and stars and all kinds of wonderful things, but what’s beyond that? and beyond that? it’s hard to imagine there being and end. however big the universe might be all things have an end or and edge, and where that edge lies, what’s beyond that? and what’s beyond the beyonds edge and so forth. It’s hard for the human mind I think in general not to think that way. Everything in our world and in science I think would make one think that. It’s just one of those things that I could think about and think about!

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Couch to 5K

Yesterday was the start of a new adventure! Not anything exciting like one might think or hope for. It’s something Bill and I decided to do after my Aunt brought the idea up to me. When I approached Bill with it, he told me that he had actually been thinking about it recently as something we might do. So we said, ok, we can do this. What is it we are doing? Running! Yes, I said it, running, well jogging really. Is it the same, no I don’t really think so, I think of runners as going at a faster pace than anything I would do!

We started jogging because I couldn’t get myself to go to the gym and I feel jogging is a much better workout than the gym. Not that I’m some workout junkie or anything close to that! No Way! If I don’t keep active and start jogging, I’ll get fatter, not something I’d like to do. Plus, I’d like to eat junk food every now and then and not worry about where it’s going to end up, my thighs or my ass!

If that sounds shallow, I’m sorry, because that is definitely not me! I want to lose weight and be healthier etc. etc. for me, because I’m not comfortable with me now like I was such and such pounds ago and I’d like to get back to there.

Now, back to our adventure, if you’ll continue to let me call it that, not that there is a choice. Bill and I had been jogging on and off in the past and haven’t been so diligent in our efforts as of late. So when my Aunt put this idea in my head, I thought, perfect, this will get us back on track. (I say us, but really me, he’s just such a good man that he does it with me) Yesterday, was our first run!

Let me first tell you what this plan actually is. It varies depending on where you look it up. But essentially it’s building up until you can jog 30 minutes or 3 plus change miles without stopping. Each week your jogging portion is increased by a few minutes. In between jogging your walking for a certain length of time. I’m going to be pretty impressed if we can do this. The one we found is 9 weeks long, 3 days per week.

Doesn’t sound too bad right? That’s what I thought! I figured, hey I could do this. I’m lucky enough that I’m athletic and have those abilities so I’ve been able to do similar things in the past with softball conditioning. But I always push the thought back in my mind that I’m older now and not working out hard like I did 6 or 7 years ago! (GAH! That long! Holy smokes! How time flies!)

My point is, I had that in my head, that I’d be able to do it, well I thought I was going to die halfway through our jog yesterday! I hate to admit it, but I had to cut it short. I had to cut it short by walking the rest of the way home. We broke it up into reps of jogging and walking, cause you jog then you walk, then you jog then you walk. So we had 8 reps, we did 4 cause I couldn’t do anymore. I’m going to chalk it up to not having jogged in months. So we will stretch that 9 week out to 10 weeks and continue this week’s workout to the 4 reps or more if I can handle it and then go to the 8 next week.

I still think we can do it. Like I said, I will be pretty impressed with Bill and I if we can work ourselves up to the 30 minutes non-stop jogging. I don’t know if it’s just me, but that sounds like a long time to just be jogging, the most I was ever able to do, other than on the elliptical, which isn’t the same, is 10 minutes and I was 16 or so, so that was, oh my, almost 10 years ago, yikes! Here’s to hoping we can do it and that we can stick to our little adventure and see it through to the end!

And thank you Bill for doing this with me and helping to push me to do it! I love you!

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Birthday pics part 2

It just dawned on me as i sit here that i never posted pictures when we took my brother to Vegas last weekend for his 21st birthday. i posted the pictures for the party at the house but not for vegas....her goes:

Saturday, July 14, 2012


Tattoos…..oh how I love them! Not that I want my body covered in them cause I definitely don’t and I personally don’t think that looks very good.

Now I know tattoos are a form of expression and to each his own. BUT, I’m sorry, there are some really dumb tattoos out there, which again, the person with that tattoo is probably going to think it’s awesome and I’m sure there are people who would think my tattoos are dumb! I really do not get the person who tattoos their whole body or their face, I just don’t get it. But that’s just me. If that’s what floats your boat then go for it, you just won’t see me doing it.

Lots of people I know have tattoos. My parents, my cousins, my aunt, my sister and some of my friends. In fact, my mother took me to get my first tattoo at 16 (when you could get a tattoo at 16, I don’t know that you can anymore). My parents had a couple tattoos before we were born but I’ve been witness to them getting the more recent ones, which I think is pretty cool. To the point where my mother, my sister and I actually share 2 tattoos. We got matching tattoos on our foot years ago. And more recently we all 3 got another one. It’s a lily with the Chinese word for family. My sister and I also share a matching tattoo. We both have the Chinese symbol for twin, since we are twins. hehe

I bring this up because I’m thinking I’m going to get my next tattoo soon. Soon meaning, at least a month and hopefully not much longer than that. It’s something I’ve been wanting to do for a while, I just haven’t done it. I go back and forth about what I want to do. I also weigh in Bill’s opinion. Now, let me say about that…yes he’d love me no matter what and yes I am my own person and if I really wanted to do something I’d do it. but because I care about his opinion and I know he’ll tell me how he really feels about it and will tell me the truth about how he feels it’ll look I take that into consideration.

There are a couple of things I’d like to do eventually, but what I’m looking to do first is put something on my left side. I’ve already got a large tattoo on my right side (that still needs some finishing up), what I’m thinking of doing is small, or somewhat small for now. I love lilies. They are my favorite flower, particularly the stargazers (the hot pink and white ones), but I love all lilies in any color! So I’m thinking I’m going to do 3 small lilies going down at kind of a slant with some girly black swirls around them…my thought is to have it so that if I wanted to add to it I could. I’m sure that doesn’t give a very good visual picture but I’ve seen some pictures online of other people’s tattoos to kind of have some inspiration. Which of course I don’t want to copy anybody and have the same thing…

I’ve had that happen already…picked my first tattoo off of the wall in the shop and a week later saw some girl with the same tattoo in the same spot, only different colors. Never doing that again!! That is one of the changes I will be making in future tattoos, I will be fixing that tattoo somehow to make it better! I’m also looking to put a tattoo on my other foot. I don’t like the one I have now on my left foot so I want to add to it and then do then make the same thing on my right foot and have them match! d

Tattoos are so addicting…yes I’ve wanted and thought about getting another tattoo on and off, all the time! But it’s always someone getting a tattoo that makes me think about it even more! I guess I’m jealous that I didn’t get to get one! Hahaha! For instance, my sister got another one not too long ago, which started me thinking more about what I really wanted to do next and now I’ve decided and hopefully I’ll follow through in about a month and have that happen! Part of the reason I was waiting so long is I was going to donate blood recently but wasn’t able to…I was so disappointed cause I was already, but my iron was too low so they wouldn’t let me do it! boo! But anyway, I like to donate blood if I can and once you get a tattoo you have to wait a year before you can do it. But I’m hoping in about a month I’ll have another tattoo!!

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Pictures for the 21st birthday

As you know, my brother turned 21, here are some of the photos from the party...part 2 to be celebrated in Vegas!
The Cupcakes...of course i didn't get any pictures of the baked goods i slaved over!

The Birthday Boy....DILLON!

Mexican Horseshoes

Beer Pong

Street Fighter Tourney (video game)


The Girlfriend ;)

Monday, July 9, 2012

aaah finally 21

It’s been a while…..

Last week was a pretty good week and the weekend was a lot of fun!

Last week was 4 th of July, so that meant BBQ, of course! A good friend of our family, more so my aunt, she’s know this guy for a long, long time and I’ve known him and his family for as long as I can remember. Well his birthday happens to be on July 4 th so they throw a BBQ for his birthday and 4 th of July, just about every year. It was a lot of fun. Kids in the pool and the adults hangin out, drinking beer and playing horseshoes. My favorite part about these gatherings is gossiping with my grandma! She’s always got something good on someone lol! Gotta catch up on what’s going on when I see her! Which is just great, cause it’s grandma! Makes it that much funnier that we can sit there and do that! Love ya Gram!

Unfortunately as the holiday was on a Wednesday, I had to work on Thursday, only to have Friday off. (this happened to be our Friday off week) And of course though I tried, I couldn’t get Thursday off, we had too many people that were going to be on vacation that week, and with the position I work in we can only have so many people out at a time in order to make sure all the shifts are covered. It’s not like I was going to do anything anyways, I just figured I’d try and make it a 5 day weekend! that didn’t happen, oh well….but it was kind of nice because the facility was pretty dead, so it was a quiet Thursday!!

What was great during this week was my Tuesday/Thursday class was cut short on Tuesday, we had a quiz and the professor had something come up so he let us go after we took our quiz, so I was out of there by 6:15, class started at 6! Woohoo! Then Thursday I left a little early from class, it was bad enough I had to work the day after the holiday, but school too! I just wasn’t having it that day! I like to give myself at least on class off, and so I left early, since technically I will be missing Thursday’s class next week because I’ll be in Vegas! Which is so much better! Lol

Which brings me to this past weekend! I know, what does Vegas have to do with this past weekend? Well, today my brother turns 21! Happy Birthday Brother!! He had his friends over for a party. True 21 style, beer pong and “mexican horseshoes” (at least that’s what we call it), and my brother being into comic books and video games, had a street fighter tournament, which is a video game. We turned it all into a tournament. Of course my parents kicked everyone’s butt in the Mexican horseshoe tournament. They came back from the loser’s bracket to beat everyone, even double dipped the team from the winner’s bracket! It should’ve been Bill and I lol, but my parents just barely beat us!

I slaved away for this party, I spent all of Saturday baking cookies and finishing my cake pops and making cupcakes! Ok, it probably wasn’t all of Saturday, but it was a good 5 hours. Which for me felt like all day, I have bad feet and knees and they were killing me by the time I was done. Which as soon as I was done, it was time to shower and be ready for the party…partly my own fault since I didn’t start baking til around noon, oh well…That is one thing I enjoy, I like to bake, I just don’t like to eat any of it. Mostly cause I’m picky hehe if it’s not a chocolate chip cookie I probably won’t eat it and even then I probably won’t eat it, cause I’m just not a cookie or sweets eater. I do love a good brownie or chocolate cupcake with chocolate frosting. And the brownie can’t have nuts in it, no sir, not for me.

Ok, got a little off track there…..

So Vegas, this past weekend was the part numero uno for my brother’s 21 st birthday. He had all his friends come and had a good time. So next weekend, we are going to Vegas, it’s just our family. And some good family friends that live in Vegas will be with us one night as well. None of his friends will be there, which is why we had the party this past weekend so he could celebrate with his friends…they are too young to have money to go to Vegas, plus not all of them are 21. Although we are taking his girlfriend, who’s not 21, but we’ll keep that to ourselves.

I’ll post some pictures from the party once I’ve gone through them…I was too lazy yesterday, ok maybe not lazy, but I chose to go to grandmas and go swimming and lay in the sun a bit rather than going through them…which also caused me to stay up till 10 doing laundry since I didn’t do that either! Lol!

Other than that, I’m looking forward to a good week and weekend. I have a midnight madness softball tournament coming up on Friday and a baby shower on Sunday for an old friend that I haven’t seen much of in a long while, but I’m so happy for her and happy to be able to be there for her.

*For those of you who don’t know…a midnight madness tournament is exactly what it sounds like….it’s playing softball into the wee hours of the morning….games starting when it gets dark and the championship game is usually around 3am….unfortunately I probably won’t be able to nap before this one cause it’s a working Friday for me, but oh well…haven’t don’t one of these tournaments in a long time, and they are a lot of fun…guess it’ll be a lot of disgusting 5 hour energies for me! lol

It’ll be hot, not as hot as the east coast and other places so I guess I shouldn’t complain too much, but once it gets over 85 I’m not too thrilled! :/

Oh well, that’s summer for ya!

Monday, June 11, 2012


I feel the need to reflect some on what has happened or really the apparent lack of what has been happening.

Don’t get me wrong here, I’m completely happy for the lack of happenings in my life. What I mean is that I am happy to be drama free and just enjoying spending evenings with Bill doing absolutely nothing. To most people, we might seem pretty boring. But then…who are most people and what IS boring. Do I want to be lumped in with “most people”? I think not. It’s like the saying “beauty is in the eye of the beholder” so boring, is in the eye of the beholder.

I only bring this up because as I’m sitting here at work writing this (shhh don’t tell), it’s Monday, and I’ve been asked, “how was your weekend?” or “what did you do this weekend?" my response is, “nothing” or “not much, just stayed home and relaxed”. Which I see no problem with at all, but apparently some people find that a problem! Is it because I’m young? Am I supposed to be going out every weekend doing who knows what? Yes I enjoy going out and doing “things”. I like to go camping and hiking. I like to go out to the bar and have a drink. What other “things” am I supposed to be doing? What do these people do that I don’t. Again, though, do I really care… hmmm, no, not at all. I don’t care but I am curious, for curiosities sake, as to what these people do that makes my lounging around seem so bland and unacceptable.

Which brings me back to the quote. I don’t find what I do boring or dull. I enjoy spending evenings with Bill playing video games or catching up with the different TV shows we like to watch. Yes, our weekends are pretty much spent doing the same thing. We usually only get 1 day with each other or 2 if we don’t work that Friday, so we spend it in each other’s company. I see absolutely nothing wrong with that. We go out occasionally and have a drink or watch a game. I have softball games, we go jogging and the occasional movie. I’m not really sure what else I’m supposed to be doing.

Again, is it because I’m young that I’m supposed to be bar hopping every weekend? I think not. Yes I’m only 25, but I find it highly inappropriate to still be binge drinking and getting drunk every Friday and Saturday night. I did that enough when I was a bit younger. I know people who are older than me and still do it, which is annoyance for another day. But I have to wonder, is that what these people are expecting me to do? Is that what they think a 25 year old does? well… not this 25 year old. This girl spends her days at work, and when she’s not working she’s spending her time with the love of her life, playing video games, watching movies or just laying there in each other’s arms. I don’t think that’s boring at all. I find it very fulfilling and to those who say otherwise I give you the one finger salute!

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Changing it up

Bill and I decided, well I said, we need another dresser we this one little one that has some of his stuff and some of mine in it, I need a little more room for my stuff. Now, with that last statement, don't think i'm one of those girls with tons of clothes, shoes etc. i'm totally not, i have a minimal amount of clothes. Shoes, that's some what of a different story, I LOVE shoes, I like cute shoes but i never wear them! I can't wear heels very often or for too long, they hurt my feet, i don't know how women wear them all day long!! I've had to do plenty of cleanses of my closet to get rid of shoes! i'm down to a reasonable amount. hehe....anyway, we went and bought a small dresser this morning and he'll have one and i'll take the old one. We also did it so that he could have a nightstand (gotta have a place to put his drink when we play video games and watch TV hehe). His side of the beds been against the wall, so we are going to try it with it being in the middle of the bed and having dressers as nightstands. I was worried it might take away some of the space in the room, but when we're in there we are sitting on the bed anyway, so what does it matter.

So, my day was spent doing the laundry and the dusting and vacuuming that i've been putting off. I HATE to dust and vacuum, bleh! I had my brother help me move the bed and i built the dressers Bill and I bought this morning before he left. I put the dressers in the bedroom and it did leave less space than i'd like, but, again, we are going to be on the bed, so it should be fine. Change is good! A moved a picture around and have one i've got to hang back up somewhere else. I'll wait for Bill to help me with that! I've just got to put the clothes away and fill the new dresser with his stuff and we'll be set! I hope he likes the change.(He better cause it took me an hour to build those dressers! LOL)

Thursday, May 31, 2012

A Look At What's Next

Now that the wedding is behind me I’m looking forward to what’s coming next, mostly! Ha! Although I took myself out of knowing what was involved in the wedding and trying to help, the last month was crazy! Something was going on every weekend and on top of that school was finishing up!

The semester ended just a couple of weeks ago and I’ve enjoyed being off, spending my time with Bill! It’s been great not having to come home from work spend a little time with him and rush off to school! Haven’t really known what to do with myself! Lol! It will be short lived! This summer semester is going to be brutal in that I will be at school Mon. – Thurs. I’ll get home from work and have a little time before having to go to school! AND four days a week! Gah! Yes I was at school four days a week last semester too but it wasn’t four straight, but hey, at least one of the classes isn’t on Saturday as I’ve had to do the last two semesters! I think I’m done with Saturday classes for the rest of the time! Thanks goodness I can have my weekends back! The only negative is that the week after summer semester ends, the fall semester begins, literally the next week! :/ Kind of crappy but, I’ll go from four days a week on campus to only two! I can’t wait for that! I’ll still be taking four classes but two of them will be online! It will be such a nice break only having to go on campus twice a week!

I’m looking forward to July, my brother turns 21 and we are going to Vegas! Three days! It should be a lot of fun! Fuckin hot! But a lot of fun! The plan is to have a party with him and his friends the weekend before at the house because his friends won’t be able to go to Vegas. Then the following weekend him and his girlfriend, Bill and I, my sister, my parents and I believe my newly married cousin and her husband and maybe a few more people are hittin up Vegas! Yes, I said my parents. I rarely go to Vegas without my parents! Is that weird? I think some people would think so, or at least some people my age might! But, I’m not one to go to the clubs and that kind of thing when I go to Vegas. I prefer going downtown and walking around with a drink in my hand, and I do that with my parents! And we have a lot of fun!

I’m hoping we will go back to Vegas in October for my Dad’s 50 th birthday! We have family friends that live out there, my dad’s best bud, so it would be great to be able to spend his 50 th with them. Plus Bill’s birthday is in October as well ;)

I’m also hoping to hit up Disneyland around that time too! Last time Bill and I went he bought me some pink glittery mouse ears! Love them! But, we bought them on our way out, SO I have to go so I can wear them! :D Plus who doesn’t like Disneyland? My sister, I tell her she doesn’t have a soul if she doesn’t like Disneyland HAHA! I’m taking my niece so she’ll have to go! I told her I’d take her around this time for her birthday (even though her birthday is in May, I told her I’d take her towards the end of the year for her birthday present, couldn’t swing it for her birthday this year, which she was fine with, but she’s six so she’d have to be! Hehe!)

As for the day to day, I’ll take that one day at a time and enjoy the company of my love and just relax till the summer semester of hell starts!

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

The Wedding - Mr. & Mrs. Cain 5.20.12

The wedding was a week and a half ago, I just haven't had the time to post about it, but here goes! (Some of you may have seen it on FB already ;) )

I'm so happy for my cousin Krista and her new husband Justin! I was glad to be a part of it and be one of her bridesmaids. It was a lot of planning that i quickly took myself out of in the beginning, too much changing of minds on this and that! lol. I said, just tell me what we're wearing and where I need to be and when.

My aunt did a beautiful job planning and seeing it all through. Stayed within her budget (or so she says lol) and it turned out great! She did a lot herself which was wonderful. She's very creative. She made the centerpieces and did the decorating for the reception. You'll see in the pictures, beautiful.

My cousin chose the day, May 20th as her wedding day because that is the wedding anniversary of my aunt and her step father, as well as the same day my grandma got married to my grandpa. three generations were married on the 20th of May. Pretty cool and it would be great to see her children and grandchildren follow suit!

They had the wedding at a golf course where we live and the theme was peacocks, not sure where they came up with that, but worked very well. My cousin would've probably preferred zebra but went with the peacock! lol.

The night before the wedding we, part of the bridal party and my family went out to the bar. Maybe not the smartest idea since some of use, ahem me, had to be at my aunts house at 8AM for hair and make up!! ya, i definitely went home early, can't say the same for the rest of them! I think they got in around 2AM! The day of the wedding!! Crazy most would say, but we all had a good time and they continued having a good time after i left at 11! haha! But, those are the nights you'll look back on and remember the good times you had. they will think of that night when they think of thier wedding and how we came together as friends and family and had a good time!

Here's a look at the wedding! Welcome to the family Justin! I Love you both!!